Let me tell you, understanding what can cause a meltdown is not the same thing as knowing what it feels like to have one.
While I was away for work, I fell and broke my ankle. My colleagues helped me every step of the way, from the ambulance ride to the hospital to navigating my way through the airport to get home.
Still, I was out of my comfort zone, and I couldn’t control anything that was going on. I was in crowded, noisy, bright places I would have normally avoided—all while I was in pain.
The doctors had to immobilize my ankle in a toe-to-knee boot. The boot had metal rods up both sides, plus a pneumatic pump to squeeze my ankle in place. I left the hospital on a pair of crutches.
As you might imagine, I felt trapped and claustrophobic with my boot and crutches. Not only did my ankle hurt, but the feel of the rods and the Velcro that held the boot together was unbearable to me. Navigating on crutches nauseated me. And I had to manage everyday life and work like this for months.
It finally got to be too much for me to cope with and filter out, and one night I had a total meltdown. My husband asked me what I wanted for dinner after a day full of meetings and a miserable appointment with the doctor. That simple question was the trigger. Suddenly I was shaking in my chair, saying, “I don’t know, I just don’t know. I don’t know how to answer that. I can’t do this.”
Panic washed over me. I felt like I was going to be stuck in this place of overwhelming confusion and pain forever. Within seconds, I was beyond the point of being able to calm myself. And there was nothing to do but let it pass.
That episode did pass. But the feelings of overload continued for as long as I was in that cast and exposed to sensations I couldn’t tolerate. Periodically, I’d lose it, but not in the same, out-of-control way.
That’s where having kids with sensory issues is beneficial. My husband recognized when a meltdown was brewing. He could jump in to make decisions, such as talking to the doctor about ways to reduce the physical sensory input from the boot and the pain. Even my colleagues understood my need to take a day to regroup.
This experience helped me understand something, too. I need to be highly conscious of not minimizing my sons’ reactions to sensory input. Whether I hear it, see it, feel it or smell it is irrelevant—they do. I need to listen to them when they say it’s too much. Because now I know what “too much” feels like.
Learn more about sensory processing issues and look at a day in the life of a child who has them. Read what a father wishes people knew about parenting a child with sensory issues. And find out why an expert says the “just toughen up” approach isn’t the right way to help.
About the author
About the author
Amanda Morin is the author of “The Everything Parent’s Guide to Special Education” and the former director of thought leadership at Understood. As an expert and writer, she helped build Understood from its earliest days.